take off the mask

I know I’m able to

but I don’t know how I would feel afterwards

is it freeing?

humiliating?

I don’t even know if people deserve to see it

I guess that’s ons of the things I’ve been contemplating but certainly not the most important question

yet it does keep me from doing it. If.

They saw me

but

What’s the point of an artist that doesn’t bare their soul

or an

What’s the worst that could happen?

You retreat into an even more isolated place?

Strangers knowing you but you not knowing them?

What’s the best that could happen?

Could it help someone feel more understood?

Could it help

Or is it useless and vain?

To share oneself is to honor one’s value in a way, isn’t it? It’s worthy of sharing?

How could I ever think that my inner being is significant enough that it’s worthy of sharing.

narcissistic

are all artists narcissists?

children are

and I’m a child

This meandering feels vapid. Because at the end of the day… all of these thoughts don’t matter to me all that much anymore.

I’ve worked hard for that

Coming back to the point. How would it make me feel. That’s what’s most important.

I think it might be freeing

and humiliating